A podcast about getting through life with a differently shaped brain. My Good Bad Brain aims to build a space of solidarity and validation for the neurodiverse. We do this with honest explorations of life with mental health challenges, especially depression, anxiety, ADHD, and the general existential dread of being alive today. Soomehow, from this, a sense of invisible connection, community, and possibility arises. If you're thinking about killing yourself: do not. Self - care, hydrate, be w ...
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It's just gotta be. For a while, indefinitely, maybe not ever, what's ever? IDK. Go ahead and listen and I talk through it. I also talk through some stuff around doomscroling and mental health in the main body of the pod but... yeah. It's time for this to rest a while. I love you all. Self care. Hydrate. Be well. Get bonus content on Patreon Hosted…
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holding with less fury, playing is that true, heartbreak
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Someone wrote a note asking about some severe heartbreak, they had heard the fuck breakups episode, and I jumped off of that. I kind of didn't address what they were talking about I realized after so I will return to that but hopefully there's stuff in here that resonates with you. come along and hang out with me and my good bad brain for a pretty …
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my grandma died so i'm talkin' through some of that
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My grandmother died. Get bonus content on Patreon Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
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hi i am crazy but also fine but also crazy and extremely anxious
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I'm trying to come out of hibernation. An extremely breathing brain here. Get bonus content on Patreon Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
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We devoted this episode entirely to one listener's question about what lies after severe trauma. The listener was sexually abused by their father though most of their family has not acknowledged this. Recently their father died and the listener expressed they'd always felt the feelings of trauma would go away with him, but they have not. This is a …
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I have bad adhd and while I certainly experience anxiety along with my depression, I have taken for granted my understanding (or more accurately lack thereof) in other people who experience really serious anxiety. So, I wanted to take this opportunity with Dr. Nick to own up to how I can make anxiety for my loved ones worse because I don't really u…
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violence for the nonviolent
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Heyoooo so as the world continues in its revolutionary spirit and reactionary status quo fascists become increasingly belligerent and violent, I wanted to talk about violence again. And specifically why I think it's worth investigating violence especially for those of us who are disinclined to it. For those of us whom the idea of hurting another pe…
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No one's free unless everyone's free. I had a lengthy mini brain breather at the beginning of this and then you can hear me and Dr. Nick go OFF about the state of the world. I do not believe we can expect true mental health if we are not living in accordance with our values and trying to liberate the oppressed around us, y'know? So. This is kind of…
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after cops attacked at fairfax
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hi this is a week ago sunday's livestream, from the 31st, a day after i was at fairfax and beverly when cops attacked everyone. pretty surreal, new experience. the world is changing. we talk about it. if you'd like to give money to something this week there are a lot of good places to donate at https://blacklivesmatters.carrd.co/#donate thank you G…
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Oh yeah babe, HORMONES, testosterone and estrogen especially. How do they affect our brains? What's the goddang deal? We talk about it and Alie was walking by and chimed in for a bit about her experiences with some hormone replacement therapy and early ovarian failure, it's a fun one! If you wanna submit questions for the livestream either join us …
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blackpilled masses and family systems therapy
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Yes this starts off with Dr. Nick and I talking about basically things inspired by all the weirdos of the world who want everyone to die for haircuts or whatever and then someone asks a question about Family Systems Therapy and specifically an offshoot of that called Internal Family Systems Therapy and it gets into a discussion of less orthodox or …
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missing human touch and confronting friends
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Pretty much kicks off what the title says. Dr. Nick is the best and, as usual, is super helpful. If you wanna submit questions for the livestream either join us live on Sundays at 10am PST at youtube.com/jsleeper or email them to me at mygoodbadbrain@gmail.com Also, if you wanna do Quarantine Calisthenics with us, it's every day at noon on IG Live …
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As usual we talk about a bunch of stuff and I have ADHD real bad y'know so I can't remember like all of what we talked about nor can I remember always to take notes about it so I tend to just remember the thing that stood out to me the most which might not even be the biggest part of the ep but IDK that's just the nature of me and this thing I gues…
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why am i numb to kindness?
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Getting caught up by dropping the last month or so of livestreams FINALLY. This one starts with me talking to Dr. Nick about some weird numbing responses I have to nice things and we get a question about self-harm behavior that gets into some interesting stuff. It's your typical good bad brain livestream type chat thing! If you wanna submit questio…
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meds: running out and considering starting
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I ran out of meds last week and it resulted in a pretty interesting (and very unpleasant) experience so I talk about that and we answer some questions about studies on psychedelics and then some questions about what to do after being done with a therapist but still feeling like you need help turn into a discussion of when one should maybe consider …
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values and boundaries: the keys to surviving your brain
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We talked a lot today about themes related to controlling your potentially damaging behaviors despite whatever your brain might be telling you about "reality". In particular related to relationships which might be experiencing difficulties due to covid isolation. We also got into talks about dealing with memory loss and its relation to trauma, depr…
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yes but what can i DO? approaching politics and helplessness
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Hi! I'm rapidly just posting last week's show because it's time for THIS week's show again and, y'know, what even is "time management"?? On this episode, after I figure out some technical problems (natch) Dr. Nick and I got into some discussions about, well, politics. Politics feel like a third rail for me on this program sometimes, because we're t…
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the notion of toxic positivity
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Heellloooo everyone, we're back with some more livestream goodness from the depths of quarantine. I wanted to talk to Dr. Nick about the idea of TOXIC POSITIVITY and how to differentiate it from a kind of healthy positivity which I think one requires to self improve. Dr. Nick presents some pretty great functional strategies for helping you change y…
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puppy or lion (managing quarantine with kids and partners)
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Hey everyone! I hope you're finding yourself well in quarantine. I know things are crazy out here so double down on self-care. This livestream found Dr. Nick fielding some questions about quarantine with kids, we talked about managing emotional flooding in tense partner situations when you know it's something you experience. We also talked about so…
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quarantine stuff, suicide risk assessment, and defining codependency
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OH yeah, we're back with Dr. Nick and the whole livestream thing. We talk about quarantine stuff, we talk about assessing suicide risk and how to help people who are deep in stuff like having anxiety attacks and answer some questions about what codependency even is. Resources provided by Dr. Nick related to today's episode can be found at www.patre…
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Hey everyone! This pod will be the predominate form for a while, it's a recording of our Sunday livestream at mixer.com/mygoodbadbrain with Dr. Nicholas Barr. Dr. Nick is gonna be joining us every Sunday at 10am at Mixer.com/mygoodbadbrain to do a livestream responding to your mental health topics and questions. If you'd like to give us something t…
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astrology and tarot and mental health with the halfasswitch
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Hey go to mixer.com/mygoodbadbrain and just subscribe to it.... we're gonna start a livestream show on Sundays, y'all. Me and Dr. Nick Barr. More info to come. Find The Half Ass Witch on socials @halfasswitch and at https://zeiglerteejay.wixsite.com/thehalfasswitch/services Jarrett is @jarrettsleeper Check out mygoodbadbrain.com and patreon.com/myg…
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dealing with our self-harming behavior with maria
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We've returned to a new year with the old Our Good Bad Brain format. I talk a bit about the new year and facing our cycles of relearning, and then we get into a really nice talk with Maria from Australia. She talks about anxiety, depression, borderline personality, and we find some common ground discussing our tendency to romanticize our dangerous …
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The first My Good Bad Brain Hotline tape is here and I'm very very honored to share it. You guys were so generous to contribute your experiences to this tape. Your share your personal experiences with various medications, among them are prozac, wellbutrin, lamictal, lamotrigene, and paxil. Some of you also share a bit more deeply about suicide atte…
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thanksgiving narratives: stolen truck, new prozac, old stories
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Hey y'all. A bunch has happened in my personal life since we last spoke, so here's me reflecting on a bunch of it. I started a new antidepressant after a bit of an episode possibly precipitated by some cannabis sobriety. My truck got stolen. I had some come to jesus moments about the way I talk to myself which felt connected to some realizations ab…
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am i just broken should i just give up?
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Hey y'all, how are you? I've missed you. I walked up a little mini mountain to sit and record a brain breather while the sun went down. I used some suggestions from y'all for topics to discuss, which felt very appropriate and timely for myself as well. Things I go through. Thanks for being here with me while I think through it, as always I hope you…
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you have to buy into yourself before other people do with Brent Coble
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Hi. I have a conversation here for you to listen to again today. Brent Coble is on the pod, he's got ADHD and depression and what he describes (i'm paraphrasing) the soup of being a person. He makes stuff for a living, both in a hands on way and more in the development, executive side of things. If you suffer from any kind of impostor syndrome stuf…
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Is mental illness causing mass shootings?
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Mental illness and mass shootings. When people talk about a "mental health" problem in this country every time there's a mass shooting, it hits our ears and minds in a way that seems correct. Surely one must be mentally ill to commit such an atrocity!? This is especially a favorite argument to make ahead of any sort of gun restriction, a sort of gu…
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Why do dogs help our mental health? Why do they make us feel good? Learn a little about your brain, the effect of boops and bleps upon it, and why even emotional support peacocks and kangaroos might be good for your own Good Bad Brain. For regular listeners: I'm trying something different. I'm sure interviews with guests, with listener guests, and …
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I thought about calling this one "bad brain bad world" but that seemed so bleak. Even though this one IS kind of dark and DOES involve truly evil family history I learned about and I talk a lot about how bad the world is and how much it hurts be a person so often but hey, that's what it's about sometimes! I'd be fake as fuck if I was sunny all the …
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clayton farris and i talk about depression and performing and money
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Here we are here we are here we are. I talk with Clayton Farris, who is very much a kindred spirit. Also a performer, and I'll warn you there tare more ACTORS to come on this show but here's the thing: aren't we ALL pretending to be people? So doesn't it make sense that people who professionally pretend to be people would be interesting to talk to …
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pride, narcissism, and acting real with kat foster
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Hi, I am bad at this part because it's usually not long after I've finished recording and editing the podcast and it has that quality of oh my god I'm so close to done please can I just turn this in already and jesus i just listened to myself for so long now I need to write about what i said again it's just like, damn. but anyway, the title is accu…
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emotional flooding, feeling like a burden, depersonalization, and medication changes
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Hi my good bad brain friends. We have officially made it to year 2 of this thing. I thought I'd kick off with a brain breather. For topics, I asked on my instagram for some ideas of stuff people might want to hear about and i got a lot of terrific responses. I ran with a few that jumped out at me, for some reason or another, and they're basically j…
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OUR good bad brain 2: anxiety and empathy with kaitlin ugolik - mgbb 52
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Today I had another listener join me, and I continue to love these convos. Her name is Kaitlin Ugolik Phillips, she is a writer and editor in North Carolina. We talk about generalized anxiety disorder, persistent depressive disorder, and plenty about our typical existential good bad brain stuff. We also talked about empathy and its relationship to …
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ariana, jim, and deep rest - mgbb 51
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Here is the full text that Jim tweeted at Ariana and I had some reaction to: "The word 'depressed' can be spoken as DEEP REST We can choose to view depression not as a mental illness but as a state of Deep Rest, a spiritual exhaustion that we enter into when we are de-pressed (pressed down) by the weight of the false self, the mask, the mind-made s…
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OUR good bad brain with lyndsay cromwell - MGBB 50
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Hi! Okay, today is our first listener interview. Lyndsay Cromwell called in all the way from the Netherlands. She's had some depression and anxiety experiences she talks about as well as dealing with a few years of really difficult family stuff, including the death of her mother. I think you'll find plenty of resonance with what she shares, I certa…
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This is a brain breather. The brain breathers are becoming more abstract and also more personal, I suppose. I started intending to be exploring certain feelings of fractured identity and ended up explaining a kind of emptiness I've been experiencing. I hope you get something out of spending time here in this odd little jacuzzi of my brain juices. S…
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facing mortality and whether or not we can change with kevin abrams - MGBB 48
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Today I talk with Kevin Abrams, a producer and writer and generally creative fellow. I intended to talk about facing mortality, a thing he experienced this last year due to illness, and the conversation really ends up being about whether or not we, and people we know and love every day, are actually capable of change. I enjoyed this immensely, I ho…
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the virtues of being alone, solitude, stoicism, some elusive concept of dignity - MGBB 47
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Here's a brain breather, a solo ep this week. I'm thinking a lot about being alone. There is such importance in us fomenting connection and togetherness and reminding each other we are not alone in our existence, our joys and struggles alike. But what about being alone? I have come to love my aloneness and find great value in it, when I use to fear…
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gender identity and money and dance and being more possible and true with ava gordy and my good bad brain mgbb 46
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I spend a lot of the opening of this discussing the state of the pod and things I'd like to try moving forward. If you want to jump to just listening to Ava Gordy and I have a talk about gender identity and beauty culture, and money weirdness, and dance, and all kinds of other things as we share good bad brain space, that starts at about 22:24. If …
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the you're ok tape - MGBB 45
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I received a tweet that read "podcast idea: an episode for people who are really struggling with their mental stuff and want to feel like someone cares about them. it would be super chill, like "wow our brain sucks sometimes. you will feel better, but in the meantime, i am here for you" as someone who doesn't have friends, i don't have anyone to he…
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MGBB 44 - "quiet ones" with melisa monts
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Today Melisa Monts, who is a wonderful writer-director-producer, joins me on My Good Bad Brain and we talk a lot around this idea of being "quiet". You know what I mean? Like the idea of someone who isn't uncomfortable being quiet and holding their space, those people are assigned ideas like they're wallflowers, solitary, brooding, meek... Quiet On…
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MGBB 43 - helping others is helping yourself
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I had a wacky week that involved a lot of circumstances that put my focus outside of myself and feel I had some revelations about the mechanisms of our powerful brains and perhaps some ways to hack these atypical brains of ours to improve our lived experiences and live serving the people and things we love. Also, here's a link to a fellow listener'…
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MGBB 42 - media, marijuana, and millennial mental health with dario civon
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Today my buddy Dario Civon comes by and we talk about this book he wrote, I'm Not Moving Out, I'm Not Getting a Job, Screw You: A Millennial Field Guide + Gen Z, and specifically about this odd moment in history and what it seems to do for existential questions and mental health in general. Dario is someone I know through online, he's someone who r…
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MGBB 41 - impostor syndrome, eating disorders, fear of failure, cycles of self hate
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I'm doing a solo one this week, talk about facing bad feelings again, negative sense of self in the form of impostor syndrome and fear of failure/success and how looking at this cycle seems to have illuminated some stuff i have with eating disorders and body dysmorphia, validation and whether i condone it or not for myself, all the flip flops and b…
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MGBB 40 - dialogue, discussion, debate with mama terry
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Today was our first attempt at a remote interview! It mostly went pretty well, I think. I'm sort of weird and listless today, my grandpa died last night and death puts me in a weird detached headspace, but anyway, Terry is amazing, we sort of recreate our first conversation where Terry introduced me to the concept of dialogue vs. discussion vs. deb…
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MGBB 39 - children of divorce: impostor syndrome, codependency, and commitment issues with cory demeyers
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Cory DeMeyers joins me today, he's an amazing parkour athlete and stunt performer and coordinator. I wasn't sure what exactly we were gonna explore today but after chatting for a while the themes arose on their own (as they're wont to do!). To other children of divorce out there, I hope you don't feel too attacked by the specificity of our experien…
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MGBB 38 - borderline personality and anorexia with Laura Cassidy
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Heyyooooo today we're talking with the wonderful Laura Cassidy ( ig: laurakatecassidy ) about borderline personality and eating disorders, specifically anorexia. I felt I learned some stuff about myself here, I've been really releasing and rethinking a lot of my own eating habits since recording this right before the holidays, so I was super gratef…
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MGBB 37 - RESOLUTIONS (on the road edition!)
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I'm solo for this ep (unless you count all the frogs and bugs chiming in from the jungle and also the string of family and friends coming through the porch where I was recording) and I thought I'd take this time to reflect upon public resolutions I made last year at this time and whether or not I followed through with them and why I think resolutio…
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MGBB 36 - A Holiday Special! Tips from me and you for the most triggering time of the year!
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Hi everyone! I put an ask out to y'all on instagram for your personally useful strategies for getting through the holidays with your good bad brain in tact and compiled them all in this lovely little ep! It's full of practical little strategies from other listeners as well as yours truly for dealing with this, the moooost triggering tiiime of the Y…
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