32. How Codependency and Perfectionism Suppressed My Dreams of Being An Artist

Pachanga and Possibility with Natalie Calzadilla

Growing up I knew I always wanted to be a creative of some sort. In college I studied fine arts, graphic design, web design, architecture, interior design, and ceramics. Until I was consumed by codependency and perfectionism. I lost my way. Instead of pursuing a creative career, I found myself obsessively searching for my self worth in relationships. I let my dream slip away slowly, busy adulting and being super needy.To make matters worse, perfectionism, would keep me caged in. #virgoproblems If I wasn’t being “productive” then I couldn’t “let go”. Letting go, flow, is a huge part of the creative process.It wasn’t until I did “the work” that my suppressed artist began to emerge, my true self. My healing journey opened up the bandwidth for creativity to flow again. You can listen to my whole journey in this episode. Hopefully you can avoid some of the mistakes I made. “Don’t die with your music still in you.” -Wayne DyerView Show NotesSupport the podcast. Buy swag! Etsy Store: CutieCrewBrandSubscribe to email list.Follow IG @nataliecalzadillanataliecalzadilla.com