Born in the Rain

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Dana is a 28-year-old white woman, born in San Clemente California, and currently resides in Los Angeles. She was diagnosed with HIV in 2018. Her biological mother suffered from substance abuse disorder and was unable to care for her. Dana was adopted by her uncle and aunt. She grew up in Hollywood Hills, an upper middle-class neighborhood.

When she was a little girl, she was enrolled into sports, arts, photography, piano lessons, swimming, etc. Her adoptive parents were able to give her the best life possible to have a good outcome; however, she was a rebel. On her 18th birthday she was thrown out from her home. Due to circumstances related to her adoption, she did not have any sort of identification documents which caused her problems later in her life.

She moved to San Juan Capistrano, a small city 70 miles northwest of Los Angeles, with her biological father who was a recovering addict. They did not get along well and she was expelled from this living situation. Dana came back to Los Angeles and went to live with the family of a friend from high school who was using drugs. Her friend would take her to “trap houses”, where illegal substances are sold. She ended up using substances and because of it, was kicked out again by the parents of her friend.

She met the father of her baby in the environment of drugs. He also had substance abuse problems. They developed a special bond being homeless and united by drugs. She had her fist baby girl when she was 20 years old, but the baby was removed by Child Protective Services at the time of birth. The irreversible fact of losing her baby gave Dana the strength to seek drug rehabilitation.

Dana learned of her HIV status in a very unusual way - she began hearing rumors from other people. By this time, she was already experiencing symptoms of the infection. Dana tells us that the manner she got infected with HIV is as odd as the way she learned she had it. Nobody in her circle of friends had HIV. She was not uncareful and she practiced safer sex. After being diagnosed with HIV she continued abusing substances for a year and a half, and shortly after realized that she needed to change her life. Dana wanted a sober man, someone to emotionally support her, to have a baby and build a family. Finding sober friends was a part of her recovery.

Dana eventually found the man she was looking for, someone who helped her to stay sober. She planned to get pregnant, and the magical moment occurred. From that time, she became very proactive in staying sober and finding the right place for her recovery. Dana has not used since. As a majority of women would agree, one of the most special and unique ways to feel connected to their baby is to breastfeed. Under proper medical advice, Dana was able to accomplish it and not pass HIV to her baby. However, disclosing her HIV status was still challenging.

Dana’s intricate story is full of experiences with homelessness, substance abuse, and cruel rumors; but it is also full of accomplishments and successes. Her story stresses that the components which surround her life are not exclusive to certain races nor socioeconomic statuses. Dana was born in the rain, and she has withstood multiple storms in her life. Thanks to the willingness to change and to have the courage to achieve her goals, the sun shines for her now and shares it in our podcast today.

Funding provided by the Health Resources & Services Administration (HRSA) Ending the HIV Epidemic Grant and the County of Los Angeles, Department of Public Health, Division of HIV and STD Programs

This podcast is brought to you by the Los Angeles Family AIDS Network