Episode 13: Kerri Lynn

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On this episode, we hear from Kerri Lynn. Kerri says that she was taught to trust doctors, taught to trust prescriptions, taught to trust the assessments she received from hospitals. And she did, but, she says, this trust nearly killed her.

[Kerri Lynn] It’s traumatizing what I went through. I never, ever in my life thought a person could feel like that. I never thought a person could think like that, especially against their will. I just knew inside of my soul, this is not me; this is not who I am.

Kerri Lynn was born in Long Beach, California, but was raised and currently resides in the upper Midwest. She grew up in what she calls a dysfunctional home and early on gravitated towards addictive tendencies. At 13 she discovered drinking. As she matured, Kerri chased other self-destructive behaviors and relationships, until her self-described out-of-control nature led to an ultimatum from loved ones: she had to find a solution how not to be self-destructive. Pain and circumstances, she writes, drove her to seek help from 12-step recovery, which, as we'll hear in our conversation, led to her 13-year nightmare with prescribed medications. During these nightmare days, she says, her medical vocabulary expanded as she learned words like suicidal ideation, disassociation, delusion, profuse night-sweats, rapid irregular heartbeat, and agoraphobia. Kerri is now 11 years medication-free and stable and says that today she has a strategy for living that works. We spoke in mid-December over Zoom.